I've had a similar experience, though less extreme, I would say. I worked in consulting for years, spent every week on the road working 8am until whenever (10pm, 1am, 4am, etc), and spent my weekends exhausted and trying to avoid doing anything so that I could recover for the next week. Almost 3 years ago, I had a falling out with my company, which led me to a regular 9-5 job where I don't travel (and got a raise, believe it or not....). In the last ~3 years, I've been to Bman twice (a friend convinced me the first time, second time required no convincing), 4 regional burns, various other events, and, more importantly, I've reconnected (or connected for the first time) with all my local friends and started occasionally calling my family. I couldn't have, realistically, done any of this without the freedom that my new job has allowed me (though I could have called my family
). Since I left the drive, momentum and energy of the consulting world I have certainly felt that I'm missing something, but I cannot imagine my life now without what I've learned and become in only a few short years. I'm not a different person, and yet I am. Parts of me that were suppressed due to exhaustion or lack of time have had a chance to emerge, and I feel that I'm so much better for it. I don't think I've found exactly the right balance for me since I feel that my job is lacking in a few key ways, but I've now had the chance to let the pendulum swing the opposite direction, and I can think about where in the middle I want it to land. If you never try the other side of the pendulum, how will you know where the right balance is for you?
I'm not a risk taker when it comes to my career, so I had to be pushed to get where I am now. Sounds like your mind is pushing you to give life a try. Think about a way to find more balance. Don't burn your bridges, and think of how you'll get back if you find that you've made the wrong decision, but accept that it will initially be a big, hard (*chuckle*) decision. I expect that someone with your work ethic and (presumably) skills, wont have a hard time finding a more reasonable, similarly compensating job. It may feel wrong at first. Give it a year or two. I doubt you'll regret it. If nothing else, you may find out that you hate having a life and would prefer to work till 1am every night, and then you'll stop second guessing yourself.