The post " eat me" was to the idiots post prior to your post. I am sorry it caught you in mid stride. Unlike some eplayans, I have a life and have been back out to the desert this past weekend. I needed to get answers to real life, not the message board. ( excuse my bards, they aren't meant to piss you off, it is my way of being faceteous.) So in effort to continue who I am, I am a teacher. I teach creative writing to 6th graders. So in dealing with the fine patrons of eplaya, I don't step out of who I am, I just extend it. So if talking to you seems that I am being condescending, please try to see the context, not the way in which it is delivered. I am a clear speaker, and I write as I talk. I am intense, but not at all angry, I work my issues in life out. So that being said, I want to call peace. Please.
I am not going to apologize for anything I have written, for I wouldn't have written it if I didn't feel it. What I do want to do is share with the world what I am learning in life. Where is the harm in that? So as I journeyed this past weekend back to the hot sun and endless roads that I just traveled away from... I asked the "invisible" energy that exists in life, to show me what the hell it takes to pull off this journey called " life". Here is the answer i was given:
So I am angry...
I said it.
I felt it.
I will it away
I channel it.
Why must humans seek to use their body for wrath?
When you really heal through something more tangible
a beautiful tool
But most forget,
the mind is the foundation for everything.
Beautiful Mind is all.
So I am sad
I reincarnate into a deeper intensity.
I say it
I write it
Why must I be it?
A sentence carried out by only me.
So I am in love
I fee the butterflies
I seek the heartbeat
For once I sleep peacefully
I try not to need it.
I breathe the dream of it.
I said it.
the list is as endless as the MIND can extend.
Built by bones titled " Love"
So I have cancer
There I fucking said it.
My mind screams in anger!
Why does it have to end like this?
My mind sheds a tear in pain.
I have to accept the dismiss
My mind screams to be loved!
For here is my only chance
For if my mind cannot heal me...
I will no longer be able to dance.
This letter is not a plea for attention, pity, anger, or love. This letter is a plea that this fucking thread be stopped, and that whomever I have offened please try to just accept that i would not be me, if I did not say what I feel. Please realize that even if you feel judged it isn't necessarily so. Eplaya lacks the ability to show body language, and most of us interpet what we read and build a picture of someone typing it. I accept you guys, even though you piss me off, hell, I would even like to meet all of you next year. I feel however that the animosity is building in all of you, based on assumptions that lack logic created by self inflicted visualizations. Ok, thats all. Tear it apart, I learned early on not to take the notifications in email, it can be an annoying cycle. Peace to you all.
PS I still think center camp rocks, neener neener neener
Today I will help you to create music..the music is the echo of whatever precious memory we embrace from our innocent contact....Tawnee Lynne