graidawg wrote:I had moments of almost painful shyness on the playa, which was a strange experience for me. Sometimes i just stood and watched as things happenned all round me. i have got so very used to not being part of whats going on sometimes it was difficult to remember it was my party too. Some of the people i really wanted to meet i just didnt go looking for because they where a little intimidating in there awesomeness. Some of the things i wanted to do i didnt because it was just far from my comfort zone or i didnt know how to ask.
when the man burnt i got seperated from my friends, like they just dissapeared. i felt so lonely in the crowd and a little scared I forgot how to approach people so i went back to the camp alone, nobody was there. So i sat on my own for an hour or so. I even thought I would do what i normally do what then happens ( far too often ) and drink myself into oblivion but one bloody mary later It just didnt feel right. Not knowing what else to do i went to bed alone.
it was the only time at BRC i felt like i do most of the time. isolated and unsure. when i got up on the sunday everyone else was so high from the great time they had I didnt know what to do or say. I spent most of the sunday wondering what happenned, I guess the shy side of me most people never see just decided it was time for me to be alone.
I felt quite sad that the part of the party we all went to i missed. still do in fact.
G-Dawg, I'm really sorry this happened.
Its happened to me before on playa, and it totally sucks!
The only suggestion I would have made in years past would be "head to the Booby Bar" There almost always seems to be at least 1 eplayan at the Booby bar. But again, you were looking for your friends, not just "people to be around"
But since this is their last year, I suppose it doesn't matter much anyway.
I guess I have one more word of advise (this is a trick I was taught as a kid by my folks, and works well at Burning Man) when you walk up to one of the big events or sound camps with a large group, before you really get into the thick of things, find some sort of land mark. When you've found something stop their take a break, have a smoke and look around. We like to use Porta Potties, random art pieces, anything that wont move off. Then mention and quickly discuss this is our meeting spot if we get separated.
I'm really sorry your burn night turned out that way.