Doing the best I can with what I've got...
Yesterday I took down the Christmas tree.
As I was packing things away, my eye kept flitting to the scantly lit jackpost by my fireplace.
That fucking necessary evil, ugly piece of metal jackpost that so fucking saddens me by its very stark and jeering presence.
So I put more a couple more lights on it.
And then I decorated the bulbs. http://flic.kr/s/aHsjQ84No2
Today I realized it needed something more... and so I started crocheting a sheath for it with something suitable, thus hiding the pole and wires completely, while leaving lots of room to poke the (by then LED) lights out before redecorating.
It's been taking on all kinds of importances, as I work on it. So I've decided to dub it my Sanity Pole.
For which I'll make things to adorn it which will become my Prayers to the Present, Past and Future. Or my Oh Fucks, or my inside jokes.... My joys and my sorrows.
My ever-changing tableau to myself, rather than an ugly reminder of failings.
And so I crochet. By the light of my pole, so full of beauty in my head. And I feel better. I'm focusing on something good.
Personally, I now think everyone needs a sanity pole.