I heard coughing last night and nearly had a stroke, imagined her choking. LOL it was ARWEN (the other basenji) coughing (she was eating a tissue, don't ask.) Anyway, so I dreamed I woke up and she was dead, so I called my vet this am and asked WHEN they could do xrays and she said come on in, they'd work me in. So I went in, and while her spleen and liver are enlarged (which they expected), her chest is clear.
Okay after hell on earth I am going with GA Veterinary Specialists in Sandy Springs. While I found a wonderful vet that does some chemo, his prices weren't much better and to have the top people who were actually cheaper (because of course, when you do 20 dogs a day and no meds are wasted... ie charge only for what you use... makes a difference) with the most experience, it's what needs to be done. So she goes in Tues at 4 for evaluation and POSSIBLY first treatment. I don't feel like I am just desperately trying anything. We have a chance for a good year, maybe more. Whatever I get, I will cherish.
Although funny aside. On the way to the vet, she began to cry, which she doesn't do. I had no idea what she wanted so... honest, she waited til I was LOOKING AT HER, locked her eyes on me, and went to POOP IN MY POCKET BOOK! I screamed NO!!!!!. Man did I ever pull over fast and get her out to potty. LOL, She said.... okay, you won't pull over, you'll be sorry. Would I ever have been.
Anyway, right now is the first I have got some relief from the utter panic and helplessness. We have a plan, we have appointment with oncologist, and I am feeling more in control of the things I CAN control.