Hey Phydeau (et al)
I realize that, comparatively, this is a bit of an old thread.... but I hope your notice and read the revived interest in it. And I also hope you head and heart haven’t exploded from all the pint up creativity wanting out. If I’m understanding you correctly, and I think I am, the “voice” is the creativity wanting out... your muse speaking to you. The “magic word” is like a key you so desperately want to find to unlock what’s in you and let the creativity just flow out, forming whatever thing it is that it wants to be.... a magic emotion-to-art translator. The human hands and tongue are, all too often, crude methods of expressing what is in the heart. They can get close sometimes, but still always seem to be lacking. Never able to step directly from emotion to tangible expression (I think that hot glass work might come damn close though) Well... the best I’ve been able to do is to keep a steady flow of ideas going. Enough to relieve the “pressure” but always just a little bit slower than I would really like.
Art is (to me) an expression of one’s self, or sometimes an expression of another’s self through you. I produce metalwork (sometimes metal art) for a living, and though some have called me an artist, I hesitate to make that leap. Not only because I don’t want Isotopia to punch me in the gut and make me cry, but also that I don't want to be percieved as feeling better than any other. I’m just competent in processes that they aren’t, that’s all. Some are born with gifts, others learn them as they grow but everyone has within themselves the ability to produce works of art, you just gotta find your outlet and have the need to get something out through it.
I too have been (as have many others) through some pretty rough times over the last few years. At some point it dawned on me that there is as much inspiration in painful emotions as happy ones. You just have to learn how to channel it out. I’ve learned, at least for myself, that this seems to be (regardless of good or bad emotion) an exercise in both letting yourself go at a wild rate and keeping a pace too. For me, the muse may strike at 2:00 am and there’s no escaping it, I have to get up and do something about it. It may be a 3 hour drawing session in my sketch book, or may be as simple as a couple of sentences written on the back of a receipt to remind myself of the inspiration until I can better give it my attention. Keep a sketch book or journal for jotting down ideas. I’ve found that rough drawing my ideas and making notes over a period of sometimes hours, sometimes months or even years, more often than not leads to a well executed finished piece. Take your time, think about what you are wanting to express through your work. Write notes, scratch out ideas, take pictures, whatever you feel the need to do. And don’t be discouraged if you don’t always get a final product out of the exercise. I have many ideas that never reached the “finished stage”. The act of simply planning it was expression enough. And most importantly I learned from it and relieved that pressure.
Don’t be in a rush to produce any piece and only produce the really emotional pieces for yourself. Not to keep for yourself, necessarily, but FOR your own inner self. Ask what this emotion is and try to represent it in the tangible world with your product.
(did someone hire a muse to stalk me?)
I like that idea... “My muse is stalking me”. I understand exactly what you mean.
“I didn't choose the art, the art wanted to be created and chose me to help it come into being"
Yeah, I often wonder about the forces at work around us that we don’t perceive. And whether or not they are finding their own creative outlets through all of us.
or should I seek a professional mental help therapist?
Ohhh... unless you’re cutting designs into yourself as a form of expression, I’d say skip the professional help. Sounds like you’re only guilty of finding a creative outlet. Hell... the best “Ar-teests” I’ve known were/are all a little whacko. I’m a little whacko too.
I hope my words helped a little. The suggestions are things that work for me, your milage may vary. Hope to hear about your progression in learning to express the curse that is creativity.