I am in a fantastic place, to be honest. I know I sounded a bit negative in that last post, but the year"Rites of Passage" was entirely -that- for me! This year, again, I have my art, and another "baby" to bring to the playa. Nothing can come between a burner and his/her art! I will just make sure not to over-extend myself. Also of note, I think I made things too easy for the newbies, and I hope in 2013 they have their own "rite of passage" to the burn (eg: lack of shower! *evil grin*)
I'm still sci-fi as ever, but more mad-max and less hitch-hiker. My trip buddy and I used to hitch hike a bit (long time ago) so it had a different meaning for us (and so did the term "road warrior.") These days I'm checking all my blinkies and trying to pack in as much solar powered LED ooze as I can. I learned a lot that will only make the next big project even better managed and more to scale with my ambition.
Giving away stuff has been awesome! I don't even care what I paid or what it's worth or who will give me money or not! The big 9X12' tent? GONE! The playa tech? GONE! (except the bar, that's one of the few constants in my burner-life.) Also, I'm really looking forward to taking my time on the drive up there and back, to stop at some parks, eat some new food, and generally enjoy things the way a camp manager can't.
Nothing like a good burn to change your outlook on life. I've always thought of BM as a sort of "Hall of the Mountain King" scenario. The faeries aren't always very nice, but your time spent there can never be reproduced, and self-understanding is a mixed bag; full of insight and horror!
I just encourage my friends find their own path, and perhaps motivate them to bring something artistic next year. BM can change people, I hope for the best
We'll see how many of us make it back there in 2013!