Elderberry wrote:Maybe he just wanted to spend his last moments and die among friends.
Personally, I don't find anything wrong with what he did.
Your perspective is interesting to me. IMO Death/impermanence anxiety is the prime mover in all human affairs. (Read Ernest Becker "Denial of Death" No other book in 60+ years of living has done more to alter my world view of what it is to be human and what motivates most of not all of our actions)
So when someone dies by their own hand in public it can be very disturbing to all who witness it or think about it. Yet really people are dying in much worse ways than this fellow every second and death is waiting for all of us as a very natural outcome of being alive. We hardly blink an eye when other lifeforms die.
So like you I don't find anything wrong with his choice to end his own life. However he was being particularly selfish in choosing to do it in the way he did considering the obvious effect it was going to have not only on the people but the event itself. His choice and timing seem odd to me. And of course if he was chemically altered he might have lost mental/emotional control of himself. I'll never know about that.
Had I witnessed it live, more than horror I would have felt awe. A memorable event.