thank you, anti M, for your reading of my reply. you're right, "the intention is good." i was genuinely wondering about your reasons. thank you for elaborating on them.
to all who think i was attacking anti m, i wasn't. i'm sorry if my phrasing was off. i again send my condolences and deeply felt sympathy to anti m and goat and all there who have grieved or still grieve. thank you for being honest and willing to tell your story, too.
"One person's art is another person's pain. Just so you know." i agree. art and film and music and books regularly trigger my emotions, remind me of things that have happened to me and people i love, and cause me great pain. some of these works just invoke hurt; others bring catharsis through that empathy and pain. i weep when i see the photos of little ones pinned up in the temple every year, and the memorials to grownups, too. it's painful, yet it's beautiful and transformational.
whether artists should or shouldn't create works at all, if they might be painful or cathartic or controversial, is one of the great subjects of art and will likely remain so forever. anti m, thank you for saying outright "that doesn't mean you shouldn't go ahead with your plans."
as conversation often does this one is making me want to find a compromise. personally, it causes me pain that the issue at stake here is usually closed off, society doesn't want to talk about it or deal with it as a culture, there are no public rituals for handling it. so i receive a lot of email and cards and etc from people who feel the same & are glad that i'm trying to make the subject part of public conversation.
which doesn't mean everyone will feel that way, and apparently a lot of Burners don't.
so anyway, a compromise might be to make the altar and/or ritual very private, listed in the WhoWhatWhere so that only people wanting to experience this will have to deal with it, and everyone else can ignore it. and i think i'll wait until 2010 or 2011 to bring it to BRC. my work in this subject matter seems to be more acceptable to people off-Playa, so i think i need time to absorb all this feedback, from courteous to vicious, and decide whether to bring it to the Playa someday. radical self expression can get too radical or rile people up too much. sometimes it's too much.
and to the people who've told me to FUCK OFF and SHUT UP, i have one answer: