Thanks for the continued comments.
bigdane wrote:what I thought of as life hasn't been like the living i dream about
To me that is a much better summation than the usual "BM changed my life bit". Although my life has changed a lot since attending, basically only in ways that I wanted it to (at least subconsciously). It did serve to drive home how unhappy I was though.
When I was younger I was more of a free spirit and only got sucked into the trappings of modern, mature, conventional (add whatever other adjectives you wish here) society with a great deal of kicking and screaming. Eventually that becomes the norm though, and a the decades fly past you eventually get complacent with it and forget who you really are inside.
The burn reminded me of what has been missing in my life, and all that long supressed stuff resurfaced.
Savannah: I don't know what it is, but no thread here escapes alive. You'll get 1 or 2 real answers at minimum, occasionally 10 or 12, and then we flog it until it's unrecognizable and you can't get your deposit back. Yet Another Crappy Birgin Guide