sorry to hear that you are having so much trouble jax. Unfortunenetly the government has many hands and none of them knows what the other is doing, or even cares. To top that off most of them cannot coordinate their own fingers. (Kind of like my ability to type
) Hopefully it will get sorted out quickly.
And keeping busy does help with depression. But don't let it be just "busting my ass just trying to survive". If you do not have a hobby get one. And make time
to play with it. That is what works for me.
I crushed the nerves in my hands a few years ago and now they hurt all the time. (It's OK. I am fine with it. It is what it is.) Had a couple of hobbies at the time but was most active in carving. I drove to my first burn with both hands in splints, which I wore for 2 years. Anyway, long story short. I began to become very depressed. And the depression did not go away at all until I started on a hobby again. Like you when thing get rough and i am "busting my ass" I just don't have time for the depression. But busting your ass without any relief just wears you down. Eventually. Having a hobby gives you something to focus on without stress. And a place where you can always see progress. Seeing progress in something you are doing, even if it doesn't get you out of tight spot, is very important. So now I have taken up art again. I am learning to draw on the computer as it is easier on the hands. And I am listening to music more often. I would like to play my bass again too, even if it does hurt to do so, but I have no place to plug in, much less room for an amp here in the motor home.
Anyway just my thoughts on keeping busy. I know your situation and mine are not the same and I hope I am not just rubbing salt in the wound.