Cat, I am in the same boat. Maybe mine is slightly less sinking since its not 4 years long.
About a year ago, I signed up for school along with full time job. It was a personal goal. But, damn it!!! It's kicking my ass now.
I dont even know what I want to do with it now. So lost.
I was so passionate to turn this goal into something more meaningful, when I started. Now... I jusssstttt... waaaannnntttt... to finish the daaaammmnnnn thiiinnnngggg....
Talk about fickle heart. I am very certain that my heart is just messing with my mind.
I go from one brilliant idea to another
from opening a coffee shop to becoming a movie director to writing to working at a book store to global management.
If its any help, here's how I look at it. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I probably never will.
But, scrambling through and attempting half-assed to find what I am looking for is sort of fun, in a sadistic way.
We make decisions based on what is right for us at a given time. There is no assurance that it would work for us few years down the lane. So, don't regret it.
Chin up, damn it!
PS: Yes, there are those happy, satisfied bastards out there. Let's just ignore them for now